Letter to my Baby

There are so many things I want to tell you about and to remember.

Like the day your daddy and I found out that you were there inside me. Or the day I heard your heart beating for the first time and cried and laughed because it was the sweetest sound I had ever heard. There were the times I spent absent mindedly stroking my tummy wishing you could feel my touch and know how much I love you. There was the first time I felt you move inside me and realised it was possible to love you even more. And the magic of realizing that you are really here and alive!

I want to tell you about how we picked your name and how we chose it years ago when you were still only a dream. I want to tell you about how hard daddy and I fought for you and how badly we have always wanted you. I want to tell you about how happy you have made us just by being there. How I dreamed of you several times and woke up smiling.

I want to tell you of how you were conceived out of so much love and joy between your father and I, and how much we have loved you since that day. And soon, I will also want to tell you of how you were born. But all this will have to wait a few more months.
A few more months and we will be able to tell you everything.
To share our lives together.
To love you forever.

All my love
Mummy
xXx

Feeling Settled

I absolutely love being pregnant! Yes there are back aches and the rest to deal with, but that is such a tiny part of it. I love knowing that in a little under 5 months time we are going to be holding our son or daughter. As happy as I am, it still sometimes feels a little unreal. I cannot believe that Andy and I are finally going to be parents after wanting it for so long. This has been such a long difficult road to get to where we are now. There were times when I just wanted to give up and stop trying because it was devastating each month when we found out we weren't successful. It became the focus of my life and it could have easily affected my marriage.

Having said all that....I would happily do it all over again just to feel the way I feel now. "Happy" doesn't even begin to cover it though. I am overjoyed, excited, ecstatic but at the same time I have never felt so settled in my life. I am married to the love of my life who treats me better than anyone else in the world, we have a home together and will soon be welcoming our first baby into the world. Life is absolutely wonderful at the moment and I couldn't ask for anything else.

Lots of love
Summer
xXx

Starting the Nursery

Andy and I have chosen the paint and the border for the nursery!! Ok...it's starting to feel real now. We're painting the walls a pale yellow colour that has a touch of cream to it and using a pastel yellow and green Winnie the Pooh border! We've chosen all the furniture from Ikea and are going down to pick it up on the 1st of August!

I can't wait to see it all come together!! I'll post pictures as soon as it's finished!

Lots of love
Summer
xXx

First Baby Gift!!

We received our first baby gift today from my friend Marie-Pierre in Canada. It's a play matt and it's adorable! Andy and the cats have been eyeing it for themselves but it is staying in the package until the baby is born!

Thank you Auntie Marie-Pierre and Unlce Sebastien!!! I'm sure the baby will love it!


Lots of love
Summer
xXx

4 Months (18 Weeks 1 Day)

This is a photo of me at four months. Not much of a belly yet (although it feels like I have one...I'm in my first pair of maternity trousers finally) but what the hell is happening to my ass? Do you think I'm carrying the baby at the back?? :)

Lots of love
Summer
xXx

A Bit of Excitement!

What a strange day today!! The UK has been at a critical security rating for the past week or so since the two car bombs which were discovered in London as well as the incident at Glasgow airport when a car was sent on fire and driven into the terminal. Last week, it came to light that one of the alleged terrorists responsible for the Glasgow attack was living and working in Newcastle-Under-Lyme (which is about 15 minutes drive from where I live).

Well yesterday, three police cars pulled to a stop directly outside my office, and 6 members of the Armed Police Response team jumped out weapons drawn, yelled at a man on the sidewalk and arrested him. For those of you who are not from the United Kingdom, the police officers here ARE NOT armed unless they are a part of the Armed Response Unit. Even then, this unit is only called in to service very rarely in the most extreme cases. We still do not know what happened yesterday or whether or not it was terrorist related. But it was incredibly frightening and it is the talk of the town today! I live in a very small town, so for something like this to happen is pretty big news.

Of course, we managed to capture what happened on our mobiles!

If I ever find out what it was about, I'll post it on here.

Lots of love
Summer
xXx

Consultant Obstetrician Appointment - 17w1d

Andy and I had our appointment with the consulting obstetrician at the hospital yesterday. The midwife thought it best since I had surgery in the first few weeks of my pregnancy. The consultant didn't seem at all concerned by the fact that I had surgery - she seemed more focused on the fact that I have PCOS. Apparently it puts me and the baby at a higher risk of gestational diabetes. So she has ordered a Glucose Tolerance Test (GTT) in 10 weeks to see how my body is handling insulin production now that I am off my medication. She did keep saying that it was only routine and nothing to worry about, so I'm not overly concerned at the moment.

Just three more weeks and we'll know whether it is a little girl or a little boy!! I can't wait!

Lots of love
Summer
xXx

16 Weeks and a Heartbeat!!!

We had out first appointment with the midwife today and she said everything seems absolutely fine. My blood pressure is a little low, but nothing to be concerned about.

Most importantly, we finally heard the heartbeat!! It was absolutely amazing!! Andy looked stunned and I cried (of course I did...I cry at the slightest thing). I think it seems very real to both of us now! We're so excited!!! Have a listen here.

That's it for now...more later!

Lots of love
Summer
xXx

15 Weeks 4 Days...

...and I am feeling great! I am getting bigger and bigger every day and I love it! My skin is going absolutely insane and I couldn't care less. Andy and I have wanted this little baby for so long now it still doesn't always seem real to us. I cannot remember ever feeling this happy or settled in my entire life. It is such a wonderful feeling knowing that in just over five months we will be holding our son or daughter. I have never met this little person or even heard his/her heartbeat....I have only ever seen an ultrasound of him/her and already I am completely and totally in love. I sometimes find myself crying for no reason other than I was thinking about the baby and crying from happiness. I really do not want this feeling to end.

The other bit of excitement we had happened a few days ago at a friend's wedding. The DJ started playing music and we all started dancing...and I mean we ALL started dancing. Lil' bean is obviously a fan of ABBA!! It was amazing. It was the first time I felt a real movement (other than a flutter) and I almost didn't realise it was the baby. Since then I have been rubbing my belly and talking to him/her as much as I can. I am desperate to feel him/her move again! :)

We have a busy month ahead. Next week we are in to the midwife for my 16 week check where we will FINALLY get to hear lil' bean's heartbeat (YAY!) Then the week after we have an appointment with the consulting obstetrician to make sure lil' bean is well and happy (because I had surgery early in pregnancy and because we used fertility drugs). And finally...in four weeks we have our second ultrasound and we'll get to find out whether lil' bean is a he or a she! Oh and then...a week after that lil' bean's Nana Jane arrives from Canada to help us get the baby's room ready and to spend ridiculous amounts of money!! :)

All is well....Andy and I are both really excited and cannot wait for December. Actually I think we are both looking forward to November when I go on maternity leave. AND we just found out that regulations have changed in the UK and I am entitled to 9 months instead of 6. So it looks like I will be going to back to work in August instead of May!! YIPPEE!!

That's all for now...but I will be writing more often in the next few weeks as we get results from upcoming appointments!

Lots of love
Summer
xXx

13 Weeks and 6 Days.....

And getting REALLY fat! :) This is me at three months pregnant.



Lots of love
Summer
xXx